What's the 1st thought that enters your mind when you wake up? Your plans for the day? Someone special? Switching on the heater for a hot shower later? Big breakfast at Mcdonald's?

Mine? It was simple. Why did i wake up at all.

Why can't i continue to lie, to lie and never wake. Never wake in this surreal reality that just drains me every waking moment of my life.

They say the truth hurts. It doesn't. The truth kills. It kills your hope. It kills your faith. It kills everything you ever dreamed of, every belief you have, every damn thing you ever worked for.

All that i am. All that i ever was. For what? For what?

Nothing. Zero. Nada. Zilch. Hello. Goodbye. Come again soon.

All the effort i ever put into myself trying to change, amounted to nothing.

All the days i spend cracking my head to write my 1st song, she never even heard it once.


To any almighty being way up there who is controlling us insignificant beings way down here. Just end it already. You've already screwed me over way beyond my limitations. I'm ready to die now.

Fuck me